Emotional money and co-dependency. Day 3 & 4: 31-day Spiritual Biz Divination Challenge

Day 3: What did 2018 teach me about my money mindset in my spiritual biz? King of Water Reversed

Yesterday was the Queen of Water and today I recieved her counterpart, the King of Water (Reversed).

I see for this card that I not only lacked resource management, it’s also showing me that the reason why I was poorly managing my money is connected to my emotions towards money – specifically having money.

I ALWAYS spent what I earned. Whenever I reached a certain amount, I’d have this compulsion to reduce it to zero. Over and over again, terrifying myself repeatedly over lacking money I clearly did not lack. I just didn’t spend or manage it well.

I was allowing my emotions to dictate my money flow and management. I am to recognize that I had emotional spending habits and to look into the reasons for this such as familial or generational experiences of lack and hustling to make ends meet, and buying things as a means for emotional gratification (done too much).

No more of my finances being dictated by my emotions. It’s time to manage my money because I’m serious as a business owner and serious about creating long-lasting abundance.

Day 4: What prevalent negative thoughts about myself do I leave behind in 2018? Page of Water Reversed

4th time in a row I got a Water suit! And it’s the same card as day 1. I’m amazed and a little unsettled? No matter how many times I’ve done readings, synchronicities, magickal alignments always astound me.

The persistent negative belief is that I will never get to who I want to be and what I want to achieve. This is why, when I get asked about where I see myself in the future, I feel resistant because I didn’t believe I can be wealthy THROUGH my own means.

I am leaving behind co-dependency. I am reminded that I am not meant to be in student mode forever, and that I am meant to be King and Queen. I can stand on my own and thrive. I can make my own choices. This life of spirituality and abundance I desire, I can make it happen. I can.

I am leaving the belief that I can’t make it out in the world on my own. I grew up very priveledge and comfortable. Even though my dad often reminds us that we need to save money and our bills are sky-high, we still have the capacity to regularly eat outside than cook, have clean water and heating, electricity, etc.

I am used to having someone take care of things for me being a student, a daughter, a mentee.

There is a belief that I won’t be able to survive in the ‘wild’. It has partly to do with how I was raised and being sheltered, often not going out on my own and relying on my parents. I have lived in a bubble and following the spiritual path and building my spiritual biz acted as catalysts in order to question the ridiculous belief that I can’t survive and that I am not strong enough for my choices.

I can start doing my own thing, take risks, explore my horizons, and live a life worth living.

Doing the 31-day Tarot or your Divination tool of choice challenge by THE Tarot Biz Christina Quick. It is an opportunity for healers, coaches, and intuitives who use divination in their biz to learn from the lessons of 2018 in order to move forward in 2019, knowing better and doing better!

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