Day 5: What prevalent negative thought about self-worth do I leave behind in 2018? King of Air
The negative belief about my self-worth is that I don’t have the willpower nor discipline to control my thoughts and behaviors, and that I am helplessly affected by whatever vibes and energies that surround me.
As an empath and highly sensitive person, one of my long-time struggles is feeling like everything controls me: my mood, people’s vibes, the environment, my own junk–and that these always have the power to debilitate me.
While it’s true that these factors can affect me, it is NOT true that it MUST debilitated me and ALWAYS keep me from having the life and money I want.
King of Air is showing me how I didn’t believe I had the power to take empowered responsibility over my thoughts, influences, my habits and ways of being, and how I could never keep my own promises. I believed, simply, that I am not a leader. I cannot be consistent (because I end up failing) nor can I be rational and sound (because I was indecisive and lacked trust in myself). I am frail; I am weak; I am helpless.
I believe King of Air appeared upright rather than reversed to tell me that…
- I AM a leader.
- My thoughts do NOT control me.
- I AM not helpless.
- I CAN be rational, fair and just, determined, and persistent.
- I CAN keep my word. I CAN follow through with my goals.
- I am a King of Air. Brilliant, strong, but compassionately just.
It’s time to stop the narrative of ‘I’m a weak baby Empath’.
And after relapsing into some dangerously damaging behaviors–from before my 2012 spiritual awakening–mid-last year, I emerged out of that with a stronger sense of who I am frankly because I really f*cked myself up that time as I didn’t have a strong sense of who I am.
I had to stop and drop whatever distractions and excuses I was making for myself, and influences I permitted to control me. I had to start being accountable for my actions and do serious soul-searching. I got help from coaches, boycotted social-media for nearly a month, meditated and communicated with my Spirit Guides (Mother Mary, Radha, and Lady Portia), journaled out all the shame, and cried out all the hurting.
I learned and now it’s time to remember and never doubt that I am powerful. I choose to call in my power when I find myself slipping. As a symbolic act of claiming who I am, I chose ‘Heart’ as my new energetic last name.
Agitated to actualize your life purpose and finally divorce that soul-less day job? Book a spiritual reading or mentoring with me, Therese Heart for reassurance, clarity, and breakthroughs.
Doing the 31-day Tarot or your Divination tool of choice challenge by THE Tarot Biz Christina Quick. It is an opportunity for healers, coaches, and intuitives who use divination in their biz to learn from the lessons of 2018 in order to move forward in 2019, knowing better and doing better!