Day 8: How did my spiritual business help expand my spiritual journey in 2018? 6 of Earth Reversed
It helped me realized that I wasn’t alone in the spiritual journey. 6 is “community”, Earth is “made tangible”.
There is a white stag on this picture. That’s wild because, years ago, prior my transfer to another university, I was frequently visited by a white stag spirit guide / spirit animal. I remember lining up to communion at church every Sunday and seeing the stag. To this day, I never knew exactly why I saw him, except that I knew somehow that I was being guided and surrounded by spiritual guides.
As this card is Reversed, I see it as not truly knowing that I am surrounded by community – in spirit and the physical. Especially in the physical.
Growing up, I learned to isolate myself. I was the girl who’d always sit alone at lunch and eat quietly at her desk. I isolated myself because everything was over-stimulating, especially feeling and recieving others judgements and feeling so ‘different’ from others.
In 2018, when my spiritual business slowed down to a crawl and I was stuck in a triggering situation in which I had to work with the two most unresponsive people for an entire year, I committed the mistake or trying to deal with it all alone even when my mental and emotional health was collapsing. Yes, I would pray and invite the Angels and the Guides, but it was only in empty words, far from the present. And also, there are things Spirit can do and what the physical can do. I needed help in the physical. I need to learn how to ask for help and how to recieve it.
2018 was the year I made huge strides in allowing myself to be helped and supported through my community. It all started when I first joined Jessie Ellis’ (then Kira Ellis) women’s circle where I experienced everyone crying and listening together. That was the spark to the match that set a whole wildfire. Soon, I was hopping from call to call not as an expert but as a client, a student, a patient–for a change. From every human interaction, I learned to become more human myself. It made me learn that it’s ok to not be perfect, to not be who I ought to be for everyone, and that life is a cooperation rather than a competition.
Day 9: What’s one thing I should have done more in my spiritual business in 2018? 8 of Fire Reversed
This surprised me. It’s telling me that I didn’t flex all that I’ve got at that time yet! Yes, 2018 was the year I stopped waiting for opportunities and invited them myself (Podcast to podcast, a magazine article, newspaper article, and a published book to boot) but this card is telling me that if I thought I was in my ‘final form’ for that chapter in my life, this card is telling is ‘I was (am) capable of doing much more.’
8 of Fire is putting our dreams into action, but I encounter this reversed. It means that I’m blocking myself.
I understand this completely. I have a confession to make… I am at limbo with a podcast invitation right now. It’s a big podcast with HUGE viewership. They’ve interviewed people like Kimra Luna, self-made millionaire and overall highly-skilled and driven womanpreneur with thousands of students under her belt. Card is saying that I’m the only one capping myself. I’m the one who’s dictating what I get to deserve and what I can achieve.
You know what, I’m listening this time. I’m stopping being wishy-washy because I’m scared out of my mind to disappoint people who invited me because they loved my authenticity in the first place.
I have to realize how I am actually blocking myself and not the Universe limiting my opportunity.
It’s 2019. Coincidentally (ugh, nothing is a coincidence) my numerology for this year is 8.
It’s time to set that 8 of Fire up-to-the- fucking-right.
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Doing the 31-day Tarot or your Divination tool of choice challenge by THE Tarot Biz Christina Quick. It is an opportunity for healers, coaches, and intuitives who use divination in their biz to learn from the lessons of 2018 in order to move forward in 2019, knowing better and doing better!